Frontpage Book 1: THE EXPERIENCER (free) Book 2: THE MECHANISM (free) Videos Podcasts FAQ

The Experiencer

Audiobook (free) Buy the book

This is the complete content of the book "THE EXPERIENCER – An idealist theory of the world and a tale about awakening to insight" by Tom W. Ottmar, published in May 2022. It is the first of, so far, two books in the Experiencer sequence. The second, The Mechanism, was published in June 2026.

The book is an inner portrayal of what is often called a spiritual awakening. Yes, it is about making contact with the deepest and highest within one's own soul, but more than that, about finding oneself — behind all the conditioning and normality that life has more or less forced upon us. We are not meant to live as we do now. There exists an alternative, which is to come to one's senses and understand both how the world, society and you yourself function — and what it all IS.

Dramatic insights are conveyed: we understand the world "the wrong way round". We are shut inside private dissociations within our own minds. The universe is a world of representation, literally, and nothing material. We stand before an enormous paradigm shift once the understanding begins to sink in.

The Experiencer consists of two parts, the first of which portrays the author's awakening while it is still in full bloom. There is a great deal of heart and pain, a longing for genuine love — without all the distorted conceptions we hold of it. The second part elaborates the outline of a new, different understanding of the world and everything it contains — including you: a new theory of the world, based on two simple mechanisms, Idealist Emergence and Attractor Dynamics.

1. The awakening

2. The mechanism